Exercising your faith for healing

     When I first started going to church, I was two weeks clean.  I'd been in a church with my Grandma after my Grandpa died but that was only out of courtesy. At the present time, the fact that I wanted to go back to a church and on my own accord really made a big difference in the way I approached it.  Looking back, I realize that I really had no idea what I was getting into.  I didn't know what kind of healing was available to me and had I known, I might not have made in the doors.  I was really desperate for a better life, genuinely desperate for a change, I just didn't know what that was going to entail.
     The events that led me up to those church doors were arranged by the hand of God, so I knew it was the right thing to do but that didn't take away the fear I felt going in.  I can recall altar calls where I felt the words coming out of the Pastor's mouth going directly into my heart and causing all kinds of palpitations. There I would be, faced with the choice to respond or turn away.  Those were the times I would run, run to the altar.  It was like there was an imaginary time bomb in my pocket about to go off at any minute and if I didn't respond, I might go up in smoke.  There was urgency marked on my heart.  Urgency to run to God instead of turning away like I'd done all of the other times.  Turning away was so much easier, it was easy to pretend that He didn't exist and that if I just sinned  more maybe I could get rid of Him for good.  Funny right?  Get rid of God?  Lucky for me, He didn't give up and now was my chance to show Him that I was grateful, that I was sorry, that I wanted to start over, for real this time and that I was willing to do what He asked of me in order to get myself right.  I was healed of all sorts of false perceptions that I had about the world and myself.  Tormenting spirits that were taking up space in my head were cast out and I was set right on a path that would begin the journey in search of the Kingdom of God. 
     The key to exercising faith is believing and obedience.  God will ask you to do things that you would never think to do yourself.  He's much more creative at getting us out of our comfort zones than we are and we have to believe that He has a purpose for it all.  God doesn't want to embarrass us, we get to do that on our own.  What He wants is for us to humble ourselves and approach Him in our brokenness to receive what He's already done for us.  Nothing pleases Him more than to see His children come out of hiding to confess what He already knows about so that He can fix us and make us whole. He loves it when we run out of the darkness and into His arms, it is His great joy to save us from our enemies.  I would like to encourage you to step out of the box and make something that seems impossible for you, incredible to God.  Take a chance and see how the Lord will honor you.  Remember, we live for an audience of One.

Declarations to release faith

I am responsible for my decisions and my chioces.  I make a decision.  I choose life.  I choose blessings.  I choose the Word of God.  I choose wisdom.

I thank You, Lord, that I am responsible for making my own way prosperous and having good success.

My heart will never depart from You.  I will always serve God.

You will restore me and make me live.

You have redeemed my life.

I will live because of Jesus Christ, who is the ressurection and the life.

You give life to the dead and call those things that are not as though they are.

You have brought my life up from the pit.

Preserve my life, for I am holy and You are my God. Save me because I trust in You.